When I was pregnant I began toying with the idea of doing Crossfit after having the baby. I'm not quite sure what possessed me to want to try something so hardcore as nonathletic as I am, but I was drawn to it. Fast forward to the past few months, I've tried the gym, running at the park, working out at home...I'm not getting anywhere. I haven't been consistent When I work out at home I get distracted by the baby or he decides to wake up for a bottle if I try to work out when he naps. Last Friday I
tried and failed went shopping and came home in tears. I did not like what I saw in the 180 degree mirrors in the fitting rooms. I looked horrible and I felt horrible. It also didn't help that I couldn't find anything that fit. Let's give this Crossfit thing a try. Stop thinking about it and do it. Tomorrow is my free trial to see how I like it. I'm nervous. I've never pushed my body in this way, but I know if I want things to change drastically, I have to do something drastic. In the past, my goal was always to be skinny. I need to loose weight and be skinny. Not this time. My goal is to be healthy and fit. I want muscle, endurance...strength. I have always dieted, lost weight and gained it back plus more each time without fail. Now that I have more knowledge, I understand why that happens and I have chosen to never diet again. I'm learning to love whole foods and distance myself from the devil, otherwise known as sugar. I'm excited about adapting to the Paleo way of eating. Really, I'm excited about transforming into this version of myself that I can see very clearly in my head. I know that when I visited the Crossfit facility today and stepped in there with my belly hanging over my pants, I did not have the appearance of a Crossfitter, but damn it, I'm going to become the athlete that I've always dreamt of being. I'll be back tomorrow to let you know how it went should I have the energy left to type, ha!