This time last week we randomly found ourselves on a road trip to Tampa. There's nothing I live for more than spontaneity these days, so I pretty much invited myself and got a day out the house.
After months of tediously filling out ridiculously long applications and drafting cover letter only to not get any response besides the occasional rejection letter, I'm over it. Seriously, it's not good for my self esteem. After my rant to a friend, she replied, "the rejection is not a reflection of your awesomeness". I know this to be true, but like most 20 somethings, I'm still trying to figure out where I belong and achieve the dreams that I have for myself. While it can be a draining to constantly have doors slammed in my face, I know that I haven't gained employment at these places for a reason. While I try to figure out what that reason is, and take a little break from the job search game, I've decided to really embrace being a stay at home mom (while still planning for world domination of course).
I've come to realize that whenever I get really down and negative it's because I'm looking at all the things that I want but haven't acquired, and my failures, as opposed to being grateful for what I do have. I'm trying to find somewhere in the middle of being content and grateful while still having goals and dreams. Does that place exist? How do I get there?
That's my current struggle.