I enjoy being at home with my baby. I really enjoy it. I love falling asleep together, waking up next to him, feeding him, playing and having "conversation". He's such a joy and the sweetest baby that I feel so Blessed to be able to call my son. For me, going back to work is more financial based than being bored at home. Sure, sometimes I crave a little time with other adults, but for the most part I actually enjoy being a stay at home mom. Yesterday I found out that I got a job that practically fell in my lap out of nowhere and while I'm grateful and ready to start this next chapter, I woke up equally as sad about this morning. Things are going to change. I don't know if I'm ready. Grey and I have been attached to hip for the past 9 months, I hardly go anywhere without him. Mothers go to work everyday, it can work - but I don't know anything else as a mother except being at my child's beck and call 24/7. I'm sure it won't be that bad and when I get down I just have to remind myself why I'm doing this. Ultimately it's because I want to eventually be home with him again but I'd feel comfortable with more financial cushion and a few things paid off. Tomorrow starts a new beginning, but also the countdown to the doing what I know I'm really called to do. I'm excited, nervous and sad all at the same time. Wish me luck.
HOW DID YOU DEAL WITH GOING BACK TO WORK?